(Note from Mom: I received this email from Jake while we were on a cruise ship. I accidentally deleted it and the computer expert on the ship helped me retrieve it and print it out, but when I returned home the email was GONE.....so I'm typing it again.) Subject:
PAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH (whatever). I'm going to fix
this mission. I don't know if any one other elder is going to do what they need to do, but my next companion, we are GOING to plan together, WE WILL talk, we will WORK AS A UNIT. I will flip the light on at 6:30, and we WILL!!!!!! be in the house by 9:30. We WILL show God we are here to work and be obedient, we WILL show him that we love him and respect the rules that he has inspired to us. We will sacrifice our lives to be here that is why we're here. I have so much to learn and so far to grow before I am who I want to be. I don't even know how to word this, I know that I have problems, but at the same time I am going to do what we need to do to build this mission. I know everything that happens is the wisdom of God and that I am being tried, I am being proved through testing. My single greatest fear is that I'm taking this tribulation and these afflictions and not learning. I want to respond well and do and learn what I'm supposed to, I just fear that I'm not. I don't know how to describe that either. My brain is fried. I did just hear that we CAN email friends, so I'm going to send one out. I'm not sure and am going to verify with the president or assistants. This keyboard is almost dead. I pray that I will be and do what I need to be and do. God knows I just don't want to fail. I want to work, I want to find people, teach them; I want to help them develop a testimony and know the things that I know. This opens them up to so many blessings, such as baptism, the holy ghost and the temple. I wrack myself that I'm not doing it. Today leaves me a little disappointed. I've been waiting for rain a long time. I've prayed every night and morning for at least this week and I think last week too. I'm told that it starts raining in January too! It seems wherever we go the rain stops. I feel it will come. I receive a peace in that time...its not just THE time. Today I wanted to sew my buttons on, fix my pants and a few of my t-shirts, sweep the house, do my laundry, clean the kitchen fridge and bathroom, organize the front room, find a map of the area, list the investigators, fix the area book, organize it, and fill out a record for all the investigators, mark the map with locations, read the Book of Mormon, study Spanish, write a few letters, email you guys, eat and rest for a bit. Unfortunately here we are. We got home last night and that kid in the black clothes is Ivan. He is a depressed goth whose on drugs, smokes, Dad's an alcoholic, doesn't have any friends and wears only black, a t-
shirt of a naked lady and chains, rings, spikes and metal all the way down his body. He's come over five times now from 10 to 11:30 and bugs me cause he says the elders are my friends. They make me feel good and I want to be baptised but I can't stop smoking and drugs and I don't feel I need to repent cause I don't think the things I do are bad. But I want to be baptised! While carrying a pack of cigarettes in his pockets and I believe he has a thing of cocaine in his room (I'm not sure though). Well, I went to bed at 11:30 or 12 again last night as such I woke up an hour late. I swear I hit the snooze button but I guess I turned it off. Then the Zone leaders called and asked where we were and apparently we were supposed to be over there. So we got up and just left. We got here and they wanted to play soccer. I don't like soccer and I can't play soccer, but I said hey,
ok, I'll give it a shot. I have stuff to do and they say I shouldn't want to do it. I hope you get this email on the cruise. Talk to
Joycelyn about when Sam was gone. See how she did things. I still have 20 months. Well, I forgot to say this on Christmas, then forgot to tell you this last Monday. But I absolutely adore every single little thing you sent me for Christmas.
Lol. The Christmas decorations I happily put up around the tree and on the doors and such. The little knit pony thing you sent me I put on the top of the tree! Strung the lights around and all. The Suns pajamas pants, I got a kick out of those! I saw one the label off the box pajamas (used) and I thought,
hah she must of sent me my Simpson pajamas!
Lol, but I didn't expect those. You know I never wear pajamas either, but I've been wearing them since, except the last two nights. Its been warm so I went back to gym shorts. The wheat thins and easy cheese made me
ecstatic! I had a craving for easy cheese early in the week before Christmas and then I saw that....oh dreams come true!
Lol. I ate the Reese's thing last week.
Lol, very enjoyable, it was
actually really good.
Lol. The M&M's were fantastic and the little fan thing of M&M's I thought was hilarious, every once in a while I cool off!
Lol. The new skin and blister stuff is great, every once in a while a blister comes back and
they'll come in handy, thank you for sending it! The only problem is that our house is HUMID or moist something. The wheat thins are all soggy and the gum that is in stick form. Not the little pieces with a shell but just gum gum, gets all wet and nasty. I don't know what's up but it is unfortunate. I keep it in the packages and everything now and in my suitcase. Since the
ATMs or something is screwing me out of my money now I take it all out at once. Shove it somewhere safe. I'm not going to lie, I don't trust it lying around. What else. The watch is great, I
nicked it against a wall yesterday and freaked out.
RRrrrrr....When I opened the Mario Shirt I .... freaked.....out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was going to ask if you could send me a shit from Hot Topic. I bought that cheesy Halo shirt and since its just paper printed on, as soon as it went through the wash, it died and I wanted another shirt.
Lol. Its so cool, and its not black!
Lol, we're both happy! The blanket is great, it smells actually really bad, like that
weird industrial smell that I don't like but I savor and get a whiff of it every once in a while because its from home.
Lol. I'm
weird. I don't remember what else you sent me, oh the tie from Men's
Wearhouse was really good. Its beautiful,
lol. Real sharp! Well I do have a little bad news.
Lol. Don't ask me how cause I still don't know. But I lost my baptismal clothes, the pictures of Fatima and I is another
Elder's clothes.
Lol. I don't know where they went. They're gone! Pants, tie and socks. Gone! That and a few more spandex garments would come in handy. Or just garments in general. Oh, and I don't need them now, but I'm going to want short sleeve shirts in the summer, I guess its sufficiently
humid here in the summer. Remember what I said about the weather in Guadalajara? I don't know I guess it was just that one day when I got here, by the airport. It was nice and I thought it was just Santa Fe that sucked. But its sucked ever since. So yea, San Diego is better. uh....the green card on the Christmas no is not the singing card I haven't gotten that still. Just a card Dad sent I believe. Finally that picture of the married couple, that's
Hma. Ruiz. One of the sisters in the church when they got married. She looks
alot different now of course, but ... that picture , the groom looks EXACTLY!!! Mark my
words, E..X..A..C..T..L..Y....like the guy at Games + I need you to just give that picture to David. Have him carry it over! I'll tell him what to say!
Lol. Oh wow, yesterday was fast Sunday and after church one of the members commented to my companions that he was hungry...well duh why do you think maybe he's hungry? Elder Martinez asked why are you hungry?? He didn't fast yesterday. I kind of...did. We started it, but we had plans to buy a cake and take it to the Mom of the kids we baptised. Her birthday was the day we baptised them! We passed by two or three days in a row and she wasn't there so we finally got over there and when they cut the cake I remembered...its fast Sunday...whoops....CAKE!!!
Lol. I don't know how the letters are going to come, I've been writing some handwritten ones but we'll see...I don't have much else to comment on, think I'm going to write the guys!! I'm really excited,
lol. I hope everything goes up. I just want to do what's right and the Lord's work, I'm just not getting along really well. I plead for your support and words of comfort and truth. I love you so much and truly, I say thanks, but I want to express solidly that I am grateful for the packages you sent and for your great taste in picking things out.
lol! Keep it all up, keep me posted on the family and the houses, stocks and such, I want to hear that you got all your retirement money back! Keep me up to date on the schools, Dad's working on and everything! The guys and all!
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Jake